Sunday, February 8, 2015

a goal for confidence.

Last week as I was driving to a Dr appointment for the 2 littles, I had a thought hit me light a bolt of lightning. It was odd, really. I had not been thinking about anything in particular, but this thought was clear as day. I decided to choose a "One Little Word" for 2015 right then and there.

Confidence.

As I sat in the office that day, the kids playing at my feet waiting for the Dr, I thought of this word. The Dr came in and made small chat with me. She casually mentioned how smart Sabrina was, and used the Lord's name in vain in the process. Devin immediately perked up, and told her that wasn't a word we use. Well, what should have been a PMM, it turned into something very different. The Dr immediately questioned Devin as to who taught him this, and that it wasn't something bad to say. 

I was embarrassed. I wanted to crawl in a hole. I didn't know how to handle the situation. I tried to change the subject, and Devin went back to playing.

I couldn't help but realize as I loaded the kids back in the car, I did indeed need to work on my confidence. Of course as I drove home I thought of a million things I could have said, but none of those came out when I needed them to.

Although people see me as an outgoing person, and some even were baffled at the idea that I need to work on my confidence...I really do. 
I have always had a hard time standing up for myself. I have definitely gotten better at it, but I would like to think I can always strive to become something more.

So, 2015 is my year to be confident. I want to try new things, meet new people, be good at standing up for something I believe in. I want to be confident in my body, and the way I carry myself. I want to have confidence in my knowledge of parenting my children, and decisions I make in our home. 

I have a good feeling about it, I will keep you posted.

6 comments:

Vanessa said...

I want lots of updates!

Cathy said...

In the words of my favorite, President Hinckley, "Try a little harder to be a little better." ❤️

Tiffany said...

I, for one, need to use this word more. I think we would all be amazed at how the obstacles in our lives would crumble with a little bit of confidence. My mission president, in speaking of Jesus Christ, used the word Boldness - Christ was Bold. Be more confident in what you know and don't be afraid to show it, be Bold.

Andrew (not Tiffany)

Emily said...

You and me both, babe. I'm getting better at it as far as sticking up for what I believe but I need to be better about NOT keeping my mouth shut when it should really be open while I speak my mind.

Heather said...

Confidence is definitely not something I'm lacking. I'll stand up for myself and my entire family without a second thought! I will keep my mouth shut sometimes if it is easier to keep the peace, but if I feel wronged, everyone will know it! I really do believe (and live by this motto): you teach people how to treat you. If you're a doormat, people will know it and take advantage. If you are confident and pipe up when you feel wronged, people learn what level of respect you require.

In that situation, I would have said to the doctor, something like this: "We, as a family, are raising our children to be respectful of our faith and this is a word we don't encourage our little ones to use in that particular way." Then flash her a big smile. I mean really, it isn't for HER to judge whether blasphemy is good or bad within YOUR family. She has no right to push her beliefs on you, nor confuse your children! My husband's cousin keeps saying JESUS (!!!) in my house and I told her that I find that quite offensive and I'd appreciate it if she made the effort not to use God or Jesus as emphatic words. She still slips up now and then but she always apologises genuinely to me if she does.

Good luck with your confidence building-you can do it!

Arianne Newton said...

Love this post!!