Friday, November 30, 2012

being the best.

I think women in general are always our own worst critic. I think I have gotten a lot harder on myself since staying home. On those especially hard days, I tend to look at other woman who appear to do it all...and then I sink lower in to sadness.
{these two sleeping together, that bum makes me smile.}

I try to do it all, but for some reason or other...I come up a little short. When I go to bed at night my mind always thinks I should just stay up a little longer to clean, but sleep always wins. Everything miraculously is always there when I wake up.
{ picnics as a family with gas station food. :) }

Paul reminds me the kids are happy, he is happy, and that I need to just get over these high expectations I have set. I feel like I am being judged if things aren't perfect, because helllo Evonne what have you done all day long.

Lately I have thought a lot about the memories I am making for my kids. Will the kids remember that our house was never perfect, will they care? Will my kids remember when I have meltdowns about how messy their rooms are? Will my kids remember that instead of playing with them I was always watching from the kitchen as I cleaned?
{teaching my kids to roll down a hill}

My days are quickly passing, and I want to change. I want the best me to be remembered, and I want to make the best memories for my kids. We recently had a lesson in church about a talk that was given by President Uchtdorf in this past October conference called Of Regrets and Resolutions. This lesson came on a Sunday after I had an especially dark couple of days. If you have a spare moment, I think it is pretty awesome. My favorite little part was "leave the past behind and move forward with clean hands, a pure heart, and a determination to do better and especially to become better."
{our juicy baby, getting so big...and so fast!}

I can't change my past, but I can and will change the future.

No regrets.

10 comments:

Emily said...

You always know when I need these little reminders. Thank you. (For the record, I think you're awesome. And a clean home is highly overrated.)

Emily Christine said...

Thank you! I needed to read this! Love you!

kendahl said...

You are an amazing mother! What you do with your kids will always matter more than how clean your house was, and I know you are wonderful with them. But you are absolutely right, we are our own critics.

Kristina P. said...

You looks beautiful, last night.

dust and kam said...

I am terrible at this. Thank you for the reminder! I need to be a better mother and wife. xoxo

I think you are an amazing mother.

The Circus said...

I'm right there with you.

Rachel@I Heart Crafty Things said...

I love you! You always say all the right things exactly when I need it. Thank you!!

Sr. Ann Marie Slavin said...

I love reading about all the things you do with your children. I doubt that they are even aware if everything isn't exactly in its place. I guess all of us set unbelievably high expectations of ourselves--unrealistic, really. I thing it's great to have goals but it seems to me that living is a lot more important.I'm always so grateful for the wonderful--peaceful--memories I have of my childhood!

SRIKANDI OASIS said...

i have those days also, but there's nothing i can say about it....you said it all perfectly...:) Thanks for sharing...

Jil ~ said...

Beautifully said! Besides, it's going to be a new beginning in just a few weeks. There's no time like the present to start anew!