Thursday, July 12, 2012

crazy thoughts during late night feedings.

It is no secret that Bri is our last baby.

Both Paul and I feel good about this decision, and when she arrived...I felt that feeling of our family being complete.

It is also well known, I have a hard time being pregnant. So it was really easy to say that she was going to be our last when I was pregnant, because I was feeling miserable.

The other night somewhere between the 12 something AM feeding and the 3 something AM feeding...I started to feel sad that this was our last baby, and I wondered if I was making the right decision.

In those wee hours of the morning when the house was quiet, and I was rocking Bri in her pink and yellow owl nursery I was thinking...

When she outgrows clothes, I won't save them in my basement hoping to pass them down to another little one.

I will have to cherish all those milestones a little more, because we won't have another baby to enjoy them with.

When I finally started giving Bri baths, and washed all of that new baby smell off...I got a little sad. That is the best smell ever, and I was hoping it would last a little longer.

After I got a little emotional, I went back to sleep...and I woke up and came to my senses.

3 kids is definitely enough crazy.
I am totally blaming most of my crazy thoughts on my lack of sleep...

7 comments:

Michelle said...

I'm so glad you're back to blogging. Bri is so perfectly beautiful. I love her pj's. Congrats!

Tiffany said...

Okay I totally need to come see this nursery!! And you can have more, and not give birth to them ya know ;), that is how we will get our Izzy...... Someday.......

Jamie Newman said...

I would keep those clothes in a box in the basement...at least for a little while until you are sure. :) Bri sure is beautiful. Congratulations to you all!

Rachel@I Heart Crafty Things said...

Boy how I relate! Almost 2yrs later from my third and I still have those crazy thoughts every day. Even though I was certain she was our last I still can't bring myself to get rid of her clothes. We just got a dog. Maybe that will help. :-)

kendahl said...

That is a really beautiful picture of you and Bri up there.

Mostly Jessica said...

Yeah or you could end up like my friends who thought they were done - gave away the clothes and got a surprise #4 baby :)

Emily said...

I can totally relate. Even though I knew for a fact Livi was our last, I was still sentimental and sad when I had to pack away her baby clothes, pass down the baby gear and donate the rocking chair. But now I love watching the kids grow up. They're SO amazing!