Thursday, February 16, 2012

change happens.

I knew before this year started it was going to be a doozy for change...and boy was I right.

We had Stake Conference a couple of weeks ago, and wards were changed {again}. I couldn't help but watch all the little kids in the hallway crying that first week. They were missing what they were use to...teachers, friends, schedules. They teach us at church that change is necessary, but it doesn't make it easy.

Change is hard.

Our family is changing. Some may only notice our newest addition, but we are noticing much more than that. It is hard to realize you will never have relationships you hoped for. Some of what makes this hard is knowing what you were hoping for was only a wish, or a dream, and probably would have never happened anyways. We are letting go of what we thought should be ours, and moving foward knowing there is something greater waiting for us.

My work is changing. I will go from getting paid to make decisions, and being responsible for projects...to...getting slobbery kisses for payment, and praying over the decisions I make for my little people. This is something I have hoped for since as long as I can remember. Now that it is going to happen, I am scared.

Change is scary.

We are hoping for a new business adventure in the Fall. It will be a lot of work, mostly for Paul. It doesn't make us not want the change though. We plan as if it will happen, and dream of the endless possibilities.

Change can be exciting.

As I think about how much things are changing, I also think of growth. Paul and I already have a new perspective on life. We are excited for what 2012 has in store, and are ready to tackle it together. We have been through a lot in the past decade +, and have always come out better and stronger people.  Our life may not be perfect, plans may not work out, we may just have our family...but in the end it will all be okay.

Because change is growth, change is exciting, change is hard, and change is necessary.

6 comments:

Cal said...

cute post. I love it. :)

Emily said...

I've always loved that saying about how change is the only constant in life. So true.

Kendahl, Stepmom Extraordinaire said...

You get to be a stay-at-home mom! Congrats, I know you've wanted that for a long time. I have a hard time with change but you're right, it's necessary.

Frieda Loves Bread said...

Truer words have never been spoken ~ we just went through another ward change as well. It's all about growth. You are a fabulous writer.

kenna said...

beautiful. mucho tears.

love you.

Jenni and Chad Stewart said...

Change is HARD! :) We had some not so happy changes a few years ago and I stressed a LOT about our future. I was surprised how much I too, was comforted by the fact that I had my little family and no matter what happened we would still have each other and we would get through it. And that in the end, if ALL we had was each other, that was going to be okay. Now we are looking at MORE changes with my husband's job, as well as mine and a lot of unknowns. Argh! Just like your other friend said "the only thing constant is change". :)